Monday, 14 January 2008
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conversations with my 13 year old self
As I make this transition, I often compare myself and my values to those I held when I was younger. I hated being called naive and innocent! I really did! But it was true. And I hate that even more! I had NO idea of the workings of the world and the way it all would be.
And the worst part about it...the younger version of me would've been very disappointed in me today.
THAT SUCKS
Was I right or am I right? My life is a whirlwind of questions now when I used to have such faith. I used to know exactly what I should do, and I held by it. And I knew exactly what was right for me. Then again, back then I was never challenged. Never tempted. I knew what I knew without the test. There's something to be said about temptation. My past self is screaming at me for even thinking about it. For even considering falling to the temptation. My current self says that, this will lead to more knowledge. To figuring myself out a little better. That it would be worth giving up my values for just one night, because at least then I'd know. And then I feel like slapping myself in the face.
I just don't know.
I just don't know.Never lose your passion. Always respond with love,
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Comments (2)
The younger version of me probably would have done something rash like jump off a cliff simply because she didn't want to become me, while I would never be able to be her agian. That doesn't make either of us right. We're both just stages of the same person.
What your saying is kind of like wondering whether the butterfly or the caterpillar is smarter.
Your past self has already had her say. She had her time to make decisions,and now its your turn.
Thank you for your encouragement. You're so right - I really think that I should try to keep my options open, otherwise I might miss out on an opportunity.
And whatever temptation you are talking about, I think that you should go for it, unless it will cause physical/emotional harm. Kind of like what Millie said, you're not your old self anymore. Now that your present self is here, do what you want to do.